our innocent
playfulness murdered, 
unretrievable ... being sucked
into a vortex where you can't 
breathe ...  feeling sick with 
people laughing 
at you ...


cheated and then 
theres the denial like 
this happening to someone 
else and not me ... and the 
fantasy world  ...  the 
choking feeling in
the gut like 
snakes


crawling 
in there over my
flesh and that creeping 
death feeling up your back 
wishing you could shut
down. Like someone 
plucking the strings
roughly and with 
intention 
to cut ... 




8.22am 3.07.12. / 9.52am