Ive treated him so so 
badly ... 


and now 
Im trying to 
avoid taking the 
beating ... it is difficult 
with everyone joining in ... 
I feel like Im being stoned ... 
the stones are hitting me in the 
chest Im worried its going to kill me 


and actually to feel the blade going into
you like you're on an anaesthetic that 
didn't work ... and actual pieces of
flesh being ripped out of your 
gut so maybe I deserve it 
but Im still going to 
kick and scratch 


and I feel 
so bad Im gonna 
end up doing it again ... 




3.07.12.  17.57 © Lizarikk / 6th , 2.30am