put the soya 
meat between the 
sheets of lasagne and 
wait for the sauce to thicken

so flattered 
to know you'd 
only miss me when
Im gone ... 

perphaps
Im a bit bored
and lonely stitching 
a red carpet ... 


looking 
for something 
to fire me up on a 
misty morning 


theres 
a 'while you 
wait offer' and a 
part of me is dying ... 

if there were 
a splinter in her heart 
would he want to know ? 


there being losses on 
either path ... 

why they go on people s rooves is if you are trapped 
inside that building …
in which case no you wouldn’t be able to look at other 
sites , there are very few vacant sites and you 
don’t know who owns them until after 
you’ve been shown round ...  At some of them you are shot  
instantly either for looking or for turning them  down ...


something worth considering ? I'm hard pushed ... 

organism ...
what a beautiful 
word as are testimonials 


I wouldn't read too much 
into it ...  an idea is not a map 


actually it's an insult she 
paid him for that, didn't 
recognise his other 
contributions ? 

/29.04.12

the law of the land is made right here 

i dunno these old fogeys expect it to be

all bed knobs and broomsticks ! 

expects me to roll

out the red carpet for him

while he sits barking orders 

apparently I'm a tease since yesterday 

i was actually waiting for you to do some

meaningful writes about significant events 

in fact i make quite a noise  what I’m about

that article is a pacifying decoy …

I don’t love you any more

why did you lie about your age ? 

beastly even

hmmmm and nobody expects any better of you or of themselves very disappointing …

its your turn to apologise …

mind yous php is gods gift to human rights so things might be ok …

*******************

how will things be affected tapas i don’t know

if there is a match going on how would anyone know what the result is

I think the thing is to play football with them … sounds nasty but its the only 

thing that seems to work …

***************************

anyone noticed that frizzle like to get the last comment in on the night thread 

*****************

what game are we playing copy cat ?

I mean after all you dont want to be playing tidily winks

so what is it ?

thank goodness people are standing up to this.

*********************


suppressing freedom of speech is not a game 

*****************

so presumptuous … I’ve obviously flattered you too much

so if i lost interest in you means I’m depresses ?

you have got a very big head

i bet ou says that to all the girl that they are depressed and frigid …

is that linguistic programming ?

**********************

as if you know what was going on with the economy …

they do say that ig you study economis you lost the pilot

fucking  true

****************

there was no need to slam me down like that …

26.04.12.

nb I don't know why blogger is making such large gaps between the lines 

there is a cut a thrust 

which makes me feel in  

the vagueness of my 

yesterdays , a cold chill ... 

the happening of what I 

cannot know in the 

scent, the being and 

the nothing 

as I plan your tomorrow 

of which we partake 

in lieu ... 

27.04.12

Interchangeable.




******************


endas threatening to cart me off somewhere ...
actually that worries me slightly less ... not sure it peeps know why but its fodder for another topic ...

why would I
be thinking about 
someone else? doesn't 
necessarily mean that I'm
bored - and far from it ...


all the more reasons to 
make me eat that stuff 
you just liquidized 

impoverishment of the riff raft didn't in fact occur


like banal, tasteless, mega sad


second guessing as a low form of interpersonal discomfort
the right have lost the plot if they ever had one 
are the real dinosaurs 


battle of the planets system 
hit a monster hand and stack off make him/her to fold the best hand.
deep-stacked poker is between basic TAG and LAG
both players are jockeying for maximum value
Understanding pot odds (and implied pot odds) is a key to successfully 
playing straight draws in No Limit Texas Holdem


you must, at all costs, accurately assess whether or not you can get a 
particular player to fold in certain situations forced to loosen your 
starting hand range. With a focused mindset, you’ll be able to improve 
your game by forcing opponents to react to your aggressive, unpredictable
betting patterns. Learn how to play sit and go  
style, and exploit the edges that frustrated opponents hand you in the 
process to seek to play their speculative hands either 
in multi-way pots or by being the first to raise
Low suited connectors and one-gappers


There will be times you are forced to lay down a decent drawing hand, 
simply because your TAG opponent will overbet - not giving you the appropriate 
odds to stay in the hand. There will be other occasions in which you’ll muck a 
mediocre holding  because your opponents’ short stack sizes do not 
justify entering a raised pot as an underdog. seek to play their speculative 
hands either in multi-way pots or by being the 
first to raise Low suited connectors and one-gappers 
are recommended over hands like Q3 off-suit, which have very 
little chance of connecting and pose a potential kicker problem on trip boards

***************
can you try to help out please instead of going tin foil and scoring own goals ... sheeeesh ... whaddid i say ?
**************

course beatrix are in the lead on gag n tag!
**************

it is difficult to get out inst' it knowing everyone is going to pile in for a hexing scrum and
when you come back all refreshed and naive they'll have sentenced you to death in your absence ...
very difficult to let go and go out for a couple of hours ...
**************

still waiting to see this badass flag ...

I suppose if you're living with parents it not always that easy to get out ...
***************

still your mum knows what bets for you i guess
****************
I've had some special bones made u p for the beatrix twins hopeful that'll keep them busy for the day !
*****************
the blue rinse committee endorsed her violence
that doesnt make it right surely she's studied a bit further than that ...
and there are other bodies about besides just them ... duh
******************
why are peole not disqualified when they play foul
******************
*****  bleats for the right to subject me to brutality in the hope of obtaining love and affection ...
***************
ok so most players spend most of their time fouling ...
can we have  a competition to see who can play cleanly ? or relatively so ?
******************

I see your making the same point ... while peddling the old lib dem thing ad infinitum ...
lets see who can be the least violent today ...
allowing for the prehistoric atmosphere on the internet ...
and possible borking and fouling episodes from unborn souls ...

maybe when people announce a game they could say that they/we are going to be playing this
game rather than just asking me to ...
cus i come in later and find not only people are not playing but are busy fouling up the pitch
and then I look a bit stupid playing loose with blindfolds ... as kisk so kindly pointed out ...
then i think actually there isn't a game here i need to find out whats going on
***************
you got me thinking ...
****************
funnily enough i made the same point but yous misread it ...
literal heads ...
*************
actually playing loose with blindfolds is a bit advance for some of yous ...
try learning to unglue you selves from the computer for a couple of hours first !
start with one finger an slowly move each finger away from keyboard ... ouch !

what 
would happen
if my feelings join
with another like 
invisible music


waiting for 
a star to lift the 
curtain of clouds 


where do feelings
go, the whole 
truth? 

don't put
all your eggs in
one basket is actually
what flickered through
my mind its not very
romantic though ...

real thoughts
can be gruesome
Even grotesque

I thought 
Id try to fall out 
of love with him 


see if I could and
I still haven't said
what was on 
my mind 

the whole truth? 


there are some you 
can't remember when 
you lost consciousness  

actually 
there is a sexual 
tension isn't there
That thing you do with 
the neighbours would 
put me off a proper
relationship


even a 
one night stand
might be dangerous ... 

for some
the word slave
would be a promotion

their enslavement being
a thing intangible

sometimes jus once

is worth it 

I los the plot
but then do I need 
to have one? 
worried


where my mind might 
go, hucking a bit 
of a typo 


and  you know what
I actually thought? 








/20.04.12

just the 

imprint of a 

recent association 

sometimes ... 
that isn't going 
anywhere, route 
to a civilized

behaviour 

gentrification?

hopefully 
I would find it 
inappropriate to 
eat you at first sight
feelings too valuable 
to touch. Even the 
paralysed can hit
a dark spot 

I feel a bit
numb as if things
are just physical its
a big con

knowing
where Im going
to stoop to

in a sequel
the focus makes
a concentrated energy
although it wasn't what
I'd wanted another 
traumatic bond? 


my muse
was left holding the 
golden panda rendering 
him elsewhere this really 
happened to someone 
even if the cage bir 
does laugh 

those
chords are going 
right up me like his 
sensitive fingers playing 


if then you go on to believe 
your own lies thus rambles 
the mind when its a 

bit out 

or when
someone else's is 

actually my 

dad got custody 

of us after my mothers 

illness progressed to a point 

... it was clear that he was 

better able to be there for 

us and less likely to 

transfer extremes 

of behaviour

but what 
do I deserve see? 
if I really thought so
then would it not 
be mine 


and so I 
compensate for 
this doing my best 
to appear educated 
with a false air 
of privilege 


not 
very difficult 
to do jus pretend 
to be a toff ...  

you know and I've lost the connection with people again now ... ***************** 


again there are two reasons why she has anhedonia 1 because of too much meds and 2 because of having unspeakable responsibilities dumped on heractually 2 things that I've struggled against myself. she then sees me enjoying myself and feels jealous and comes in aiming to destroy it and because the world is filled with convenient endemic co-dependency i get a religious bandwagon upon me as a consequence and such is the state of things in medieval Britain today thankyou ...


***************** besides which if adults are self determining then they don't actually need to be around her apron strings its just a  false kind of sponge pudding thing designed to pacify the masses a sponge pudding thing that liquid lunch knitting cliques love to promote so that they can drift dozily through the afternoon happy in the knowledge that they have crushed any displays of fresh spirit !

it feels as
though I can't 
have you. And 
though its you I 
want I am capable
of loving another ... 


let me 
not interrupt 
when you are 
otherwise engaged! 


when the scab has 
healed over I will 
remember thee 
not

gotta do 
this stupid essay
on advertising


in a way 
you want to 
feel your way 
through and then
crop the feelings 
if you want to 
advertise it 


in fact
to amplify 
within a confined
space creates tension.
To keep it concentrated
not to take up too many 
causes just to keep up 
with the Jones. But 
focus and hammer
out the feelings 


gonna hit 
that ball really
hard so if you're 
feeling a bit sensitive 
I suggest you get orf ...