you know and I've lost the connection with people again now ... ***************** 


again there are two reasons why she has anhedonia 1 because of too much meds and 2 because of having unspeakable responsibilities dumped on heractually 2 things that I've struggled against myself. she then sees me enjoying myself and feels jealous and comes in aiming to destroy it and because the world is filled with convenient endemic co-dependency i get a religious bandwagon upon me as a consequence and such is the state of things in medieval Britain today thankyou ...


***************** besides which if adults are self determining then they don't actually need to be around her apron strings its just a  false kind of sponge pudding thing designed to pacify the masses a sponge pudding thing that liquid lunch knitting cliques love to promote so that they can drift dozily through the afternoon happy in the knowledge that they have crushed any displays of fresh spirit !